I’m Such An Emotional Mama

I’ve been super busy getting my oldest ready to start school and dealing with all the emotions that come with sending your 1st born off to Kindergarten. I thought my emotions would settle back down some when the stress of back to school shopping and getting everything in order was finished. I didn’t think I would be that mom who is bawling her eyes out as she watches her kid walk through the doors of the school for the first time.

The truth is I’m still a total emotional wreck with tears flowing, and she won’t walk through that door until tomorrow morning! Geez. Someone please tell me it gets easier. I already foresee all the empty boxes of tissues I’ll be cleaning out of my car as she exits the car every morning.

Ellie has been my little sidekick practically glued to my hip for 5 years, and as sad as I am to see her go I know there is a whole new future out there waiting for her. Even though she swears she already knows she’s going to hate school, she’s absolutely going to love it. She loves to learn, and she has no idea what great learning adventures are in store for her.

And my poor little Aubrey is going to be devastated when she realizes her sister is no longer here all day. My girls have never been apart more than a couple hours. If Ellie leaves for a couple hours to spend some one on one time with my grandparents next door or to play with her cousin down the road Aubrey goes into a major fit. No matter how much I try to distract her, Aubrey wants to stand at the french doors and call for Ellie until comes back home.

I know it’s going to be a huge adjustment for all of us, but as Ellie enters this next phase of independence I’m looking forward to all this one on one time I will get with Aubrey. I wish my babies could stay babies forever. Watching them grow is such an emotional journey, but it’s one I wouldn’t trade for the world.